My dad passed away on this date, 5 years ago..

Many things happened after he was gone..

To look back and ask myself if i could change anything given another chance.

I would change nothing.

My priorities in life are still the same.

Love is important for me. And it comes before family and friendship.

Being able to marry someone i love and to setup a family with him.

It is the best of both worlds.

At times, we may find ourselves ahead of others.

But it is never guaranteed that life will be smooth sailing always.

There will be times when we will fall back and start over again.

We will grow to learn, experience, be wise and sure of our future decisions in time to come.

Never be afraid to make mistakes.

Never be afraid to love.

I've made mistakes.

I've loved.

I've no regrets.

13th Oct 2011

- I dun understand.. How come things become like tat

- I guess I brought it upon myself..

I do love you

- Let me cope with e hurt then..

- If it really happens..

- I am never so certain of what i wan now

=_(

- Fight with me..

Do you know what you are saying...

- Yes

- I know

- I'm asking you to give your heart to me.. If it doesn't work out..

- Let me handle the hurt myself

*nod*

- I dun need you to judge if you can or will hurt me

- All i need is for you to say yes and give me your heart..

Yes. I will try

- You promise.. Not to give up so easily

- I have hurt you. I will do my best to not do that anymore..

- Just tell me yes in caps and i'm happy le

Yes :)

- Thanx baby.. I love you i really do

- =D I'm so happy now..

- I feel v bliss now =)

I'm back in sg! :D Home sweet home! Nth beats the comfort of my bed ^-^

I'm down with gastric flu on e last day in Hanoi. Fortunately, it was e last day. Struggled at the airport and on flight to finally reach home and collapsed on bed for 11 hours.

Wakey nw but needs plenty of rest and water. No milk, no spicy and oily food. Bah x 3...

Overall, i'm satisfied with the trip apart from the flu :)

I realized westerners are really adventurous. They can travel from country to country constantly without returning homeland. And they can spend months on their trip and sometimes rest at a foreign country to find a job. Recuperate sufficient cash and start traveling once again. I'm impress cause i can't do that. I'll miss my love ones.

Here are some of the things i'd notice in Hanoi, Vietnam:

• Vietnamese girls are pretty
• Males are less assertive than females
• They love vegetables (be it raw or cooked)
• They consume beef (my favorite, suits me) and chicken most of the time (i didn't see duck dishes in my trip)
• They are generally friendly people
• Standard of living is low. Food and necessities are cheap.

Nevertheless, it was an enriching trip for me. When i can get to know myself better. To learn how to trust, rely and take care of myself in a foreign country. Make new friends and see a new perspective.

Can't wait to embark on my new chapter in life! :D

I'm 26 and i have not live enough yet! ^-^

Paradise Luxury Cruise

The balcony outside each cabin

Sauna room (shared commonly)

My cabin





Halong Bay views

Our lady tour guide

Pen down my thoughts in the cabin on paradise luxury at 10:23pm on 7th Feb 2012 hanoi time and enjoying the can of Bia Ha Noi (Vietnamese beer) i smuggled on board the cruise from hanoi city.

Got to know a grp of Eurasians and was asked to join them for dinner. I wasn't alone =) Met a helpful tour guide on board as well. She was born in the same year and mth as me! :) I'm glad i had a nice company. I feel fortunate to meet quite a few frenly folks in Vietnam so far.

My trip has been enjoyable! Travelling alone isn't that scary after all :) However, one should go on short trips for a start to determine if you'd like travelling alone or with a bunch of frens. I wouldn't mind going on a solo trip for a few days to a safe and nearby country once again =D

I will be docking at 10:30am tml ^-^ Wish me a pleasant journey back to Hanoi city! Will attend the cooking class at blue butterfly rstnt and mud wrap appt at la siesta in the late aftn all the way till the evening =) not sure what to have for dinner though.

I'm starting to miss sg, my family and close frens. No seasick but i do feel homesick. Cya folks on 9th Feb 2012! =D 'there's no place like home..' This phrase is getting to me soon.

Tml i'm heading to Halong Bay for cruise le :D Not sure if i've access to the internet to blog.

My love ones i will be safe de! :) no worries

*hugs with love*

Dinner and one bottle of Bia Ha Noi with Lan tonite.

I went for spa at La Siesta instead! Lol totally no regrets! :D

My therapist is young and beautiful :) i like! ^-^


Treat myself with the Hanoi Old Town Package for 1 hr 40' at 55 usd. Uber shiok! :)

It consists of an Imperial Jade Therapy in which you'll hv a body massage plus the hot stone therapy, a relaxing facial treatment along with some refreshing tea and light bite to eat after the treatment.

Wee with glee!! :D I'm back in my hotel room and awaiting to hv dinner with Lan at 730pm while i take the time to blog ^-^

I'm hungry... *rub my tummy* Lol.

Day 2

Went to Temple of Literature in the morning. Hmm nth much. Walked the streets thereafter and bought a checked shirt for myself at 250,000 dong (ard 11 usd) hehe yippee! There are alot of nice male shoes here though :) However, female shoes in sg or korea are better i feel.

One thing i realize, Vietnam gals are quite pretty :) And their guys are not as tan as Thais but not as soft-looking as Koreans.

I had Pho Ban (Chicken noodle) for lunchie tdy. I still prefer Pho Bo (Beef noodle).

Receptionist told me i can skip going to Chula fashion showroom cos it is quite far. She suggested i stay here to shop instead :D Hehe i shall listen to her advise and strike off that item from my itinerary.

Should be switching my spa with the cooking class on 8th Feb due to timing issues. Will update the later half of the events once again!

Hugs and kisses,
Vivian :)

End of Day one at Hanoi

I met a new gal named Lan while having Pho Bo n Pineapple juice at a rstnt in Cau Go. And she asked me out for dinner tml ard 730 to 8pm.

Hehe she asked if i drink. Lol. Hmm... And said there's a place selling beer for 5000 dong which is roughly 0.25 cents sing dollars. O_O!!!

Lol but i promise not to drink le. *bite finger* Oh ya nite street nth much to buy wor =x

On the cyclo infront of St. Joseph cathedral

Hanoi Royal View Hotel

Back in royal view hotel to rest. Half first day at Hanoi.

*sobz* i got cheated. gif an extra 20 usd for an hour of the cyclo tour $#@$!*&
Can't blame anyone cos my Maths is bad. And before i could finish my calculation, the man is gone.. =(

But before that, things are smooth overall :)

Walked ard the Hoan Kiem Lake and visit St. Joseph cathedral jus nw.. My legs are aching and i'm thirsty, which is why i'm back in e room to blog and rejuvenate nw! ^-^

Should be going for the Night Market at Dong Xuan later on from 7 to 11pm.

I need foot massage or spa! :) Hee!

PS: Angie i'll be safe de! *hugs*

Before departure from sg...

Inspired by Swee Wei, i'm doing this solo trip today.

26 going on 27, this is my first time travelling alone. I'm slightly excited, nervous and somewhat worried. I've no idea what to expect, uncertain if i will enjoy the trip and not sure if i'll be happy and be able to find myself before my return.

But i know i'm going on this trip for myself. My close ones want me to move on. I've been mourning for awhile and i'm tired of living my life like a zombie every recent days.

I hope to be happy once again. To be as cheery as i used to be but wiser.

Wish me lots of luck! Hope Daddy looks out for me too!

Hanoi, Vietnam here i come! =D

源，生日快乐。

10 self-motivating tips on how to stay happy living the single life

#1 Relax.
Your singledom will not last a lifetime. Well it will if it is meant to but this is a very rare karma. The worst thing you can do is panic and think you have to find someone immediately or your life is over. This air of desperation is by far the most debilitating energy to bring into a new relationship with yourself or with anyone new for that matter. It makes you blind to obvious red flags and puts you in all kinds of compromising situations. So once again - take a breath, be happy to have been given this special opportunity to get to know yourself. Look at it this way - if you are uncomfortable spending time alone with you what makes you think anyone else will feel comfortable spending time with you? This can be quite a challenge to someone that has continuously filled up their lives with someone elses. Having a relationship with yourself is exactly like having a relationship with someone else. You have to be supportive, caring, understanding, and yes you have to learn to listen and communicate with yourself and your inner guidance. Sometimes the only way to get you to listen to yourself is to force this "time alone" upon you.

#2 Stay clean.
Forget about being stoned or disconnected - not a good recipe for a successful relationship with yourself or anyone else for that matter. Beat your addictions once and for all if you have them. If you can't do it for yourself - you won't do it for anyone else.

#3 Give yourself a chance.
Being happy alone does not happen overnight especially if you are a recovering codependent. There will be times that you feel you are invisible, no one will ever love you, you are wasting your life, your life is passing you by and a whole lot of other negative self talk. Take yourself for a walk or even better on a date. Learn how to cheer yourself up. The better you get at being alone, the better you will be at being in relationship. For some it is extremely difficult to cater to your own needs. Are you one of these people that will happily cook if someone is over but if it is just you - bread and butter will suffice? Make the effort to cook for yourself - seriously. This is one of the most self loving things you can do for yourself. Cook yourself something new each week, each day even. You deserve it!

#4 Study something new.
Its a perfect time in your life to go to night school or completely change career tracks. Figure out what you are passionate about and go for it. There is no one to hold you back but yourself.

#5 Meet new people.
Not necessarily for romantic reasons just to expand your support community. Friendships are paramount, where would we be without our friends.

#6 Exercise.
A great way to get to know yourself again - start with reconnecting with your body. Its the only one you have this lifetime. Singledom is the perfect time to get yourself in shape and the endorphins released when you work out keeping your spirits flying high. Why not pick up an old team sport you used to play in high school - great way to socialize and stay in shape.

#7 Rediscover your creativity.
It's in there! We all have the ability to create magnificence. You may have temporarily forgotten what you came here to create but if you spend enough time alone you will rediscover your creative self. What a perfect opportunity to play when no one is watching! So get out those pencils, paints, clay, inventions, designs and let loose.

#8 Focus your attention on your thoughts.
In case you have missed the last ten years of evolution it is now widely accepted that yes your thoughts do create your reality. Take this time alone to become extraordinarily of your thoughts.

#9 Be grateful for what you already have.
Finding happiness in contentment in what already exists in your life.

#10 Step out of your comfort zone.
Each week plan to go somewhere new, or do something different. Don't wait till Mr or Mrs Right is in your life to follow your dreams. Do it now! You have more chance of meeting your special someone if you are living your life to the fullest. Even if you don't want to meet anyone you still will have a blast following your hearts desires.

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10 tips on how to stay happy living the single life